October 2013
After healing from my 2011 surgery, I gathered strength to walk out of my marriage. I was living with my parents. While I did not regret my decision, the burden of the decision weighed on me. It felt as if I were at a crossroad with no idea of which path to take.
One night, I was fast asleep in my room. I found myself outside of my body. For clarity’s sake, I will call that part of me which was outside the body as my soul ‘I’. The soul ‘I’ did not have a physical form but could view the room, my physical body sleeping on the bed, and a dark green hued woman(Devi) at the foot of my bed.
The experience
The dark green hued woman(Devi) held my left large toe and shook the toe. SHE was beautiful. Her nose ring shone in the darkness. Her skin was radiant as if SHE were newly minted. SHE was very voluptuous. The soul ‘I’ was embarrassed since it felt disrespectful to have my physical body sprawled in front of the devi. But the soul ’I’ couldn’t move the physical body. It was as if the soul”I” was sitting on a front seat at a play. You can see the characters interacting but you know you are separate from the characters. In this situation, the characters being my physical body and the dark green hued woman.
Next day morning, I shared my experience with my guru. He told me he was waiting for approval to take on my case. He read this experience as HER approval.
Similar experiences were occurring consistently in my life at this point in time. Lucid visions, out of body experience, prophetic dreams were common occurence. I was convinced I was losing my mind. My guru and few others helped me navigate my life.
Looking back in 2024:
Since 2010, my mindset has undergone a change.Instead of looking for a 1-1 relationship between cause and effect it is striking to notice the interconnectedness of life. My earlier stance was of bewilderment and fear of losing my mind. This has changed to accepting that life can be experienced differently. It was Grace at play when SHE led me to my guru. It is Grace leading me now.
Sharing what I believe now. I am convinced that these ideas are ever revolving. As life shapes my evolution, I am very likely to cringe at my blog. I believe that humans are caged by their sense organs that result in a particular reality for the individual. If one is able to transcend their sense organs, one might experience different realities.
In 2018, I was on a Harry Potter themed ride at Universal Studios. I buckled into a comfy seat. The ride creates a perception as if I were flying on a broom along with Harry Potter. We flew close to the ocean, climbed up mountains, and flew through windows chasing a ball. The ride ends with our team winning the game and standing besides more characters from the book.
After this ride, I found it difficult to shake off a feeling that my life is similar to that ride. There is no obvious broom, but this world likely feels real because my mind believes it to be real.
Am I a Truman in ‘The Truman Show’?
-vengayam
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